Purposeful, Intentional, Productive

Okay, wow.

I did it! I reached over 50,000 words in the month of November. For those of you wondering what I’m talking about, it’s NaNoWriMo.

NaNoWriMo Winner 2012-180x180

The month was a crazy one:  Moving everything we own one weekend, working on a church project every night another week, and of course, the Thanksgiving holiday with family. On top of having a full-time job. I spent the last week getting up at 5:00 a.m. to catch up on my word count. And strangely enough, it turned me into a morning person. Which I now love!

Unfortunately, I didn’t get to write about this last Thursday–I was sick for an entire week. Which brings me closer to the point of this post…

After training for and running a marathon (see Here We Go Again… and Good vs. Crappy Runs and My First Marathon:  The Wonderful in the Horrible), after trudging through NaNoWriMo (see NaNoWriMo!!!!!!!!!!!!), and after a week of being sick, I decided to take an evening “off” from everything by watching TV and surfing the net. Of course, I did a few productive things like eat supper, play with the dog, and put laundry away/organize my closet (it’s still a little crazy after moving). I expected to feel relaxed.

Nope.

I felt like the evening was a complete waste. And I was frustrated because I had no idea why. Well….. Having spent every spare minute in the last six months working productively and intentionally toward huge goals, I have reprogrammed myself. Just like a person can “become” a morning person (see Michael Hyatt‘s post, How to Become a Morning Person), a person can become other things. I am becoming purposeful, intentional, and productive.

So now I’m struggling with conflicting feelings about the “new me”. I’m excited because being purposeful, intentional, and productive will propel me toward my future goals, life dreams, and crossing things off my bucket list. But I’m also a little saddened because I wonder if I will never feel relaxed again. But my husband reminded me, relaxation could just be redefined.

All in all, even if I have lost the ability to feel relaxed doing “nothing”, I am beyond excited at the future accomplishments and realization of dreams before me!

Good vs. Crappy Runs

Just crossed the finish line of my 2nd 1/2 Marathon

I mentioned in Here We Go Again… that I was going to be training for a marathon. First off let me say, I haven’t backed out yet! Before starting, I was nervous about running three days in a row (I am using the Hal Higdon Novice 1 training schedule). I wondered if I would get shin splints right away, never recover, and have to back out of the race. Some of you may think it extreme that I already had that fear. But my running had been pretty sporadic, and I’ve known a number of people who have done just that.

So far, so good.

Today was not my best time, but it felt glorious! It’s always good to have those runs that feel just perfect.

Yesterday I had the crappiest run yet. Felt awful. Of course, it didn’t help that I ran during a hot part of the day… But during that run, I reminded myself we have to have the crappy runs to realize how great the good runs really are.

And tonight, I realized that perspective is similar to a view we should have about life.

We don’t like going through the crappy parts of life–the other day I just wanted to curl up in a corner. But if we didn’t have those crappy parts, we wouldn’t realize how priceless the good parts are.

May I always, in a way, be thankful for the crappy times of life. I am definitely thankful for the lessons I learn through running!