Purposeful, Intentional, Productive

Okay, wow.

I did it! I reached over 50,000 words in the month of November. For those of you wondering what I’m talking about, it’s NaNoWriMo.

NaNoWriMo Winner 2012-180x180

The month was a crazy one:  Moving everything we own one weekend, working on a church project every night another week, and of course, the Thanksgiving holiday with family. On top of having a full-time job. I spent the last week getting up at 5:00 a.m. to catch up on my word count. And strangely enough, it turned me into a morning person. Which I now love!

Unfortunately, I didn’t get to write about this last Thursday–I was sick for an entire week. Which brings me closer to the point of this post…

After training for and running a marathon (see Here We Go Again… and Good vs. Crappy Runs and My First Marathon:  The Wonderful in the Horrible), after trudging through NaNoWriMo (see NaNoWriMo!!!!!!!!!!!!), and after a week of being sick, I decided to take an evening “off” from everything by watching TV and surfing the net. Of course, I did a few productive things like eat supper, play with the dog, and put laundry away/organize my closet (it’s still a little crazy after moving). I expected to feel relaxed.

Nope.

I felt like the evening was a complete waste. And I was frustrated because I had no idea why. Well….. Having spent every spare minute in the last six months working productively and intentionally toward huge goals, I have reprogrammed myself. Just like a person can “become” a morning person (see Michael Hyatt‘s post, How to Become a Morning Person), a person can become other things. I am becoming purposeful, intentional, and productive.

So now I’m struggling with conflicting feelings about the “new me”. I’m excited because being purposeful, intentional, and productive will propel me toward my future goals, life dreams, and crossing things off my bucket list. But I’m also a little saddened because I wonder if I will never feel relaxed again. But my husband reminded me, relaxation could just be redefined.

All in all, even if I have lost the ability to feel relaxed doing “nothing”, I am beyond excited at the future accomplishments and realization of dreams before me!

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Unfinished Business….

I guess that would be an appropriate name for this post.

Thanksgiving Day 5k

I did not complete a post last week Thursday, I did not complete NaNoWriMo, and I have not come to a conclusion about my current job.

Posting an entry on my blog last week was a bust. Obviously the day wasn’t all bad–it was Thanksgiving for goodness sake! We spent the time with family, ran a 5k, ate really yummy food–it was a blast! Other things happened too, like my dog chewed through my  laptop adapter. Unfortunately my battery is so bad, my laptop will only operate plugged in. (My mother-in-law let me have her old adapter, but it was a little late for a posting–thanks Momma J!)

Thursday was also the day I decided to quit NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month). I had over half the word count left to write. I didn’t see that being accomplished in roughly a week. At that point in time, the only thing NaNoWriMo seemed to be doing for me was contributing to my stress level.

And that brings me to my job. I’m still not sure what to do (see What to do when we don’t know what to do). And not knowing what to do, can be very stressful. Especially when a decision will directly impact one’s way of life. I worry about being able to sustain my family financially. The other day my co-worker reminded me, God takes care of our finances. I needed that reminder.

So yeah, I feel like a bunch of loose ends thrown together.

Despite not completing a post last week, spending Thanksgiving with family was priceless. Despite not completing NaNoWriMo, the decision to pull out early lifted the burden of too many commitments. Despite uncertainty with my job, having a wonderful co-worker there to say what I needed to hear most is invaluable.

Most importantly, having a God to hold my loose ends together….irreplaceable.